i realize that denial is actually a very formidable defense against emotions. the emotion might still be there but at least it lies behind bolted gates, unable to fester. but once you accept it, it all rushes out to overwhelm u. where there is coincidence, u see providence. where there is correlation, u see cause. post hoc. it's like the way the river surges in torrents once the floodgates are open. that's what acceptance does. open the floodgates. open pandora's box.
i'm confused all over again. i know i'm hoping too much again! but i can't help it. really. candle in the wind that refuses to die off. i want to book out! but nooooo. oc imposes his will~
i know i should be contented with what i have. appreciative. and i am! i really am! i don't wanna express it cos it'll ruin things i feel. maybe not la. i dono situations like these are delicate. like tatterdamelions. so fragile but so beautiful. but believe me. i really am <3 but i can't help myself from wanting moreee!!! u knowwww? haiz. can't stop the moonlighttttt.
i'm on the low end on the circular spectrummmmm. nooooo. this cycle once again.
so happy feel so much more at ease expressing myself with this veil of privacy. it's only me here. and u. but u're me too! ahaha agents. smiths. machines~ welcome to my fairy tale boys. do you trust me? DO YOU TRUST ME. THEN JUMP!
that's aladdin btw. i know my fairytales well. my happy childhood days. halcyon. very banal already this word. and just for the record, i'm in the specs mess! smack in the middle of confinement period. recruits recruits recruits. bittersweet.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
i realize that denial is actually a very formidable defense against emotions. the emotion might still be there but at least it lies behind bolted gates, unable to fester. but once you accept it, it all rushes out to overwhelm u. where there is coincidence, u see providence. where there is correlation, u see cause. post hoc. it's like the way the river surges in torrents once the floodgates are open. that's what acceptance does. open the floodgates. open pandora's box.
i'm confused all over again. i know i'm hoping too much again! but i can't help it. really. candle in the wind that refuses to die off. i want to book out! but nooooo. oc imposes his will~
i know i should be contented with what i have. appreciative. and i am! i really am! i don't wanna express it cos it'll ruin things i feel. maybe not la. i dono situations like these are delicate. like tatterdamelions. so fragile but so beautiful. but believe me. i really am <3 but i can't help myself from wanting moreee!!! u knowwww? haiz. can't stop the moonlighttttt.
i'm on the low end on the circular spectrummmmm. nooooo. this cycle once again.
so happy feel so much more at ease expressing myself with this veil of privacy. it's only me here. and u. but u're me too! ahaha agents. smiths. machines~ welcome to my fairy tale boys. do you trust me? DO YOU TRUST ME. THEN JUMP!
that's aladdin btw. i know my fairytales well. my happy childhood days. halcyon. very banal already this word. and just for the record, i'm in the specs mess! smack in the middle of confinement period. recruits recruits recruits. bittersweet.